Friday, August 29, 2008


Parts of the craziest/funniest MSN conversation I've had in a looooooong time: *18PL warning lol*

frEsh says (12:40 AM):
u're like some kinda john legend druggie lol
jovial says (12:41 AM):
jovial says (12:41 AM):
i told my friend i wanan rape him
jovial says (12:42 AM):
he told me.
jovial says (12:42 AM):
it s not rape..its surprise sex.
jovial says (12:42 AM):
frEsh says (12:42 AM):
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And later...

frEsh says (1:25 AM):
apa ni my dark side is coming out again
jovial says (1:25 AM):
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jovial says (1:25 AM):
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frEsh says (1:25 AM):
jovial says (1:25 AM):
jovial says (1:25 AM):
frEsh says (1:25 AM):
eh i cant be luke
frEsh says (1:25 AM):
what's d female version of luke??
jovial says (1:26 AM):
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frEsh says (1:26 AM):


ZOMGWTF the Jabbawockeez are coming out with their own clothing line JBWKZ soon!!! squeeeeeeeeee!!! I wonder what it's gonna be like, I'm so stoked XD

I'd always wanted to get one of their Armory stack logo shirts, but..... well, currency conversion rates are a royal pain in the punggung. Screw the US dollar I want my Jabba tees grrrr. I really wanted one of these white ones they wore in the Yahoo! Pepsi Smash commercial:

Damn chio OK. The best part is, they come in a small women's size... when they're not out of stock, that is. Nice marketing move.

Nice boombox too. :P If I was a billionaire I'd get myself the boombox and a tee in every colour they have. I know..... crazazayyy.....

Oh speaking of Pepsi Smash, Jesse McCartney did a reaaaal smooth cover of T-Pain's Buy U A Drank for his commercial. You have to check it out seriously. I've got an audio rip of it if anyone wants it XD


Sure the Beijing Olympics were a blast, everyone knows that. But do you really know your Olympics?? hehehe.... Here are some..... really interesting, to say the least..... facts about the ancient Greek Olympics. Those ancient Greeks were badass, man.


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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

tag - random stuff about me

Ar. I got tagged again, this time by Clarine :D So here we go again.....

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginnning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to read your blog and play.

Starting time: 1518 hours
Name: Xinxian a.k.a. fresh
Sisters: Just the one
Brothers: None
Shoe size: 6
Height: 160cm (never officially verified =.=)

Where do you live: Uh.... official residence in Sg. Dua, Penang
Favourite drinks: Coke/Pepsi, fruit juices of any kind, lemonade(!!!), iced lemon tea, and anything from Starbucks :P
Favourite breakfast: Toast, waffles, pancakes, cereal... you get the idea...

Have you ever...
Been on a plane?
Only once.... next time to come next year XD
Swam in the ocean? Probably have.... more than 10 years ago =.=
Fallen asleep at school? Seriously man. I've lost count.
Broken someone's heart? Um. No.
Fell off your chair? Um.... pretty sure I have, can't remember when tho....
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call? Nope.

What's your room like? Right now, four mattresses on the floor with a bunch of wardrobes and vanity mirrors surrounding them. Cozy.
What's right beside you now? Jeez. Cellphone, camera, pencil case, bigass books, speakers, graduation bear, stuffed owl, big mess of wires, printer..... should I go on?
What's the last thing you ate? Fried 'tang hoon' :P

Ever had...
Chicken pox?
No, thank god. Vaccinations exist for a reason.
Sore throat? Hello?! I get those an average of 3 times a year.
Stitches? No!!
Broken nose? Dude. What kind of extreme sports people are doing these tags? No.

Do you...
Believe in love at first sight?
Hmmm. Lust at first sight, maybe. ehehe.
Like picnics? With the right person, yeah :P

Who was...
The last person you danced with?
The last person who made you smile? Uh.... one of my housemates...?
The last person you yelled at? Hey, I'm all about peace. No yelling.

Today did you...
Talk to someone you like?
Oh yeah...
Kiss anyone? Dude. Never been kissed ever. Sad, I know.
Get sick? Nope...
Talk to an ex? None exist.
Miss someone? Hmmm...
Eat? It's 1547 already, of course I ate duh...

Best feeling in the world: To be able to do whatever you want without fear of pressure, judgment or worries...
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yeah... I'm just a big-sized kid who can crash casinos now :P
What's under my bed: The floor?
Who do you really hate: In no particular order - liars, hypocrites, fakers, wannabes and Miley Cyrus
What time is it now: 1549 hours

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. Going for tuition
2. Being a useless prefect
3. Sitting for my Grade 5 piano practical exam
4. Getting real excited about the Internet
5. Wondering what I'd be like in 10 years' time

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. Study
2. Take long nap, then eat
3. Refresh Perez Hilton obsessively
4. Get more gangsta hip-hop songs
5. Watch Jabbawockeez videos on Youtube XD

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. McD french fries. 'Nuff said.
2. Oreos!!!
3. Chocolates of any kind
4. Mars bars
5. Cake!!!
I am so dying from high cholesterol.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
2. Travel around the world with friends and family
3. Save some, invest some e.g. buy shares in Warner Bros. Universal Studios FOX Entertainment Bad Boy Entertainment Jive Records Chanel YSL Dior Marc Jacobs BBC/Ice Cream Apple Google etc etc etc
5. Seriously. My goals in life are to shop until I drop, or watch TV until I pass out, whichever comes first, what else do you expect me to do?

5 of my bad habits:
1. Procrastinating (big time)
2. Sitting on my ass all the time (big time)
3. Being antisocial sometimes
4. Cussing at random stuff
5. Criticising stuff all the time (big time)

5 places I have lived/stayed a night in:
1. Penang (duh)
2. Setapak, KL
3. Langkawi
4. ...... can I just move on to the next question?

5 things I will do after I complete what I'm busy with:
1. Sleep
2. Watch TV
3. Hang with my friends
4. Eat Penang food
5. Sleep some more

5 people I tag: Whoever reads this that still has time to blog. ehehe.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


I've just noticed the more work I have, the more I blog =.= Yalah I know I'm the queen of procrastination. I'll get started on my work rightaway...... eventually.......

Anyways.... here be some lulz to brighten up everyone's day.... hahahaha....

What you laughing at?! Dude says it's NOT FUNNEEEE!!!!

Hahahaha.... here's another one:

Hahahahaha.... sure you laugh now, but give it another 10 years and the same thing'll make you wanna tear your hair out Hulk-style... hehehe...

And no, this doesn't mean I've outgrown my extreme aversion to kids. It's just a coincidence that they're about 3 ft tall and make me laugh at the same time. Really.

Whazzat you say? What kind of person doesn't like kids?


Monday, August 18, 2008

fresh is pissed

OK I know I'm supposed to get crackin' on my thesis (woe is me), but I stumbled upon THIS and I'm just really irritated right now and need to let off some steam.

Tell me your response isn't WTF.

What does it say about our country that the education system still involves the issue of race after almost 51 years of independence? There are so many things so wrong in the article, I can't even think straight now. But the quotes by the PPIM director in this article are a good start, they're just simply priceless, like this one:

"If [the opening of UiTM to non-Malays] is allowed to happen, then there will be a worrying situation where many Malay institutions will crumble and be 'Malaysia-nised'."

and this one:

"It is hoped that the exclusiveness of UiTM is not undermined by anyone and it be allowed to continue as an institution that will strengthen the Malays."

OK first of all, why would the "non-exclusiveness" of UiTM in any way mean that the "strengthening of Malays" would be jeopardised? Secondly, what the hell is wrong with being 'Malaysia-nised'? Nabeh I thought we were supposed to be Bangsa Malaysia and be united and look beyond our racial differences and all that shit?

To the leaders of our country (for now), you wanna know why patriotism in this country among young people is so low it takes an Olympic gold-medal match to see our support for the country? You wanna know why you got your asses whooped in March? You wanna know why Anwar is getting so much support and your pathetic attempt to smear him isn't working? This is why. Because you have shit like this going on in your country and you can't or don't do anything about it, and allow the shit to hit the fan and get coverage in the freakin' mainstream media. Even if Anwar is really evil and plans to exterminate the Chinese and Indians once he gains power, he doesn't freakin' show it. He espouses equality for all, which is what us, the lowly rakyat, want so desperately now. And its working, 'cos in a public perception crisis what matters the most is what the people think about you (which, if you couldn't tell, is really BAD stuff), and not whether you're really innocent or guilty.

And the most disturbing thing is that there is actually a need to have a separate university for Malays to 'strengthen' themselves. I mean seriously?! Anybody with half a brain (cell) can see through that blasted idiot director's pompous statement that UiTM is soooo exclusive and holiao and whatever to the underlying message: The Malays are so [insert adjective of your choice here] that they cannot handle competition from other races.

On a completely unrelated note, I wonder why the so-called brain drain in our country is getting worse and worse......

*cracks head for 14 hours thinking of a reason*

Aiyo I cannot think of a reason lah. Our country is tersangat de wonderful. [/sarcasm]

You know what? Fuck you. Fuck you and your University of Impossibly Thickheaded Morons. We don't wanna study there any more than you wanna let us.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

dashed dreams

No explanation needed for Malaysians about what dreams were dashed :( But still at least we got something......

Maybe that's the whole problem. Maybe we're too easily satisfied. Hmmm.

But kesian him la.... I should know what a biatch pressure can be, especially the pressure of a whole nation plus understandably oppressing home ground audience =.=

But tulan wei, we always have to be second-class heroes.... better luck next time I guess.....

Friday, August 15, 2008

tag - soundtrack to my life

Ahhh..... finally almost all my assignments are gone, and I got a tag from Rei coming along just at the right time ;)

So without further ado.....

Rules of the game:
1. Put your music player on shuffle mode.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 10 people

How are you feeling today?
More Than Friends - Estelle
Um.....OK..... I guess it's true, but then I kinda feel like that everyday.... some people will know what I mean :P

Will you get far in life?
Rehab - Amy Winehouse
OK this is so not good for me. I really hope this doesn't happen, seeing as I'm still squeaky clean now, but who knows what'll happen in the future.... hehehe....

How do your friends see you?
Miscommunication - Timbaland ft. Keri Hilson and Sebastian
Huh. Well, I know my communication skillz are not that excellent..... but still.... using it to describe me in one word is again, not good for me. I sure hope that's not true :S
This tag is not going very well.

Will you get married?
Are You That Somebody - Aaliyah
Shit this is freaky. So true.... I'll only get married if I find that somebody.... that somebody whom I would give up everything for and would do the same for me....

What is your best friend's theme song?
Shawty Say - David Banner ft. Lil' Wayne
Uh. I don't really have any gangsta best friends, but I guess my closest friends who are attached really "whipped 'em shit" outta their boyfriends..... =.=

What is the story of your life?
Into The Night - Chad Kroeger ft. Santana
Lulz. This is real fitting because I've always been a night person as far as I can remember, and lately I have been spending a lot of time cranking out assignment after assignment late into the night.....

What was high school like?
Gone - Daughtry
Hmmm.... high school wasn't that bad for me, but there were times when I was all like, "I'm sinking", especially during F4 and F5....

How can you get ahead in life?
Hot - Avril Lavigne
Hahahahaha..... 'tis true, dat. Hot people really do get ahead in life a lot faster.... unfortunately I'm not, so this probably means I'll have to suck up to my bosses or whoever by saying "you make me so hot, make me wanna drop" all the time.... OK scratch that, I wanna puke already.

What's the best thing about your friends?
Shoulder Lean - Young Dro
Why's everything related to my friends so gangsta?? Well.... I can't say that the best thing about my friends is the way they... uh.... do the "shoulder lean" dance, but they do give me a shoulder to lean on.... hahaha....

What's in store for this weekend?
Love In This Club, Part II - Usher ft. Beyonce and Lil' Wayne
*chokes laughing*
Well I wish I could say my life was half that interesting, but unfortunately not. My plans for the weekend..... uh..... I dunno what they are but they sure don't involve going within 100 feet of a club, much less love in the club =.=

Describe your grandparents.
Do It Like I Luv It - NLT ft. Fabo
*dies laughing*

How's your life going?
Forever - Chris Brown
Uh well..... my life does feel like it's going on forever with nothing interesting.... but I wish it were more like the lyrics.... "dance forever ever ever ever"..... who wouldn't, especially with Chris Brown?!

What song will they play at your funeral?
Hedwig's Theme - John Williams (Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone OST)
Wow. I didn't know my love for Harry Potter was so strong that they would play the theme song at my funeral. It is a real nice song tho :D

How does the world see you?
Gravity - Sara Bareilles
Interesting...... I guess it could mean that the world sees me as being down to earth....? or it could mean that the world sees me as... er..... always falling into someone's gravity, as the lyrics go.... wait, whozzat someone?

Will you have a happy life?
Shine - Bond
Um.... can't say anything based on the lyrics cos' there are none =.= But good to know that my life is gonna "shine". I sure hope this one becomes true :D
Eh iTunes you tipu me. How can my life be happy if I've gotta go to rehab?!

Do people secretly lust after you?
Summertime - NKOTB
Wah.... really meh.... if only there really were guys who saw me and went, "hey girl can I get your number"..... my life would be a lot more interesting 'cos then I could really "dance forever ever ever ever" =.= I am so lame sometimes.

How can you make yourself happy?
Shut Up - Black Eyed Peas
iTunes srsly I'm already antisocial enough and you want me to shut up some more? But seriously tho I think I should shut up sometimes 'cos me and my big mouth tend to screw things up big time. So yeah. Good advice too I guess.

What should you do with your life?
Pictures Of You - The Last Goodnight
Um..... I should keep pictures of myself to remember what I've gone through....? OK then.

Will you ever have children?
We Belong Together - Mariah Carey
Nooooooo.......... please tell me this is not a sign from Steve Jobs saying I'm doomed to be stuck with children noooooooo

What song would you strip to?
Heaven Sent - Keyshia Cole
Huh. Can't really imagine stripping to this song 'cos it's so.... well, not badass like a strip song. But yeah, if I was gonna strip I would be doing that for someone who was sent from heaven for me, duh. XD

What does your mum think of you?
One Sweet Love - Sara Bareilles
OK sometimes these answers are really disturbing. "Mum" and "one sweet love" do NOT go together in the same sentence. Next next next.....

What is your deep, dark secret?
Jump - Madonna
'scuse me what? The fact that I can jump is no deep, dark secret OK. Fine, if this has to mean something.... my deep, dark secret is that I've had thoughts of jumping before. Off a tall building, that is. But obviously I didn't, duh.

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
Helpless When She Smiles - Backstreet Boys
OK this is getting ridiculous. I don't even know who my mortal enemy is, and besides, I couldn't even have one 'cos whoever it is would be helpless when I smiled at him/her.... and that would be the end of my mortal enemy. Lulz.

What's your personality like?
Baby Girl - Bow Wow ft. Omarion
=.= I sure hope this is not literal, 'cos.... gah who wants to be a baby girl at 21?!
But I do wish there was guys who would go, "don't care what nobody say, I'm gonna do it my way, I know that everybody got an opinion but you'll still be mine"...... I'd just be putty if any guy who looks like JT/Wentworth/Christian Bale/Phi Nguyen PHIIIIII/Gaspard Ulliel did that :P

What song will be played at your wedding?
Fatal Attraction - Chris Brown
Phwoar. Well if there's gonna be a wedding, it's safe to say that a fatal attraction did happen between me and hubby 'cos I'd have overcome my commitment-phobe tendencies for him wor. And I really like this song (Chris Brown!! *blushes*), so it's not that big of a stretch that I'd play it at my wedding..... hehehe.....

Well that's it. hehe.

I tag..... Lydia, Denise, Peng, Xin Yun, and Siu Sien (if anyone of you actually still reads my blog lol).

Today is a good day...... woooooooooo.......

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

i don't effin' know

Could everyone just leave me the hell alone PLEASE.........

I love you guys and all.... and I really would like to help you....


I don't effin' know everything
I don't think as fast as you think I do
I have my own stuff to worry about
I'm not the all-knowing God in the form of a fugly sepet-y flat and pimply 21 year-old
I'm not as good or sure as I used to be
I can't help myself and help you at the same time
I don't wanna be responsible for anything if your stuff comes back wrong because whatever I said was just my foggy opinion
I don't wanna feel like I'm doing your assignment 'cos every question you ask is leading you to your final copy anyway
I'm not a filter you go through before your stuff reaches the lecturers
I'm struggling to keep my head above water just like everyone else
I doubt my thoughts and decisions just like everyone else
I know sometimes I bring it on myself but still.....

please don't expect me to have the answers for everything

'cos I'm not a freakin' 8-ball.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

wordle me

Random cool thing of the day:

Text cloud of my blog content as generated by clicky.... =)

Check it out, it's a good way to waste some time doing useless but cool stuff :D

Sunday, August 3, 2008

my life really sucks

I'm sooooo exhausted and burned out and frustrated and just plain cranky nowadays. There are too many assignments and presentations and stuff within too short a period of time, I've never quite felt so aimless and helpless at the same time before. shit I forgot I have to do research for my thesis too... aaaaargghhhh.... I just wonder which one will be the straw that breaks the camel's back...

Meanwhile, as if my life doesn't suck enough...

The MTV Asia Awards was today. And I couldn't go.

Look at that pic look look look. IT'S ONE REPUBLIC OK!!!! I don't really care about most of the other people who came, not even Leona Lewis, since it's the MTV Asia Awards with many Asian artistes coming, and as everybody knows, I don't care much about most Asian people (yes, I know I'm so gonna burn in hell for that, I'm going to the 6th level of hell anyway according to this Dante's Inferno test).


I super super super *heart* Ryan Tedder OK...... he's not exactly the Christian Bale/Wentworth Miller type of guy that I usually go into hysterics over, but I'm still a sucker for musicians...... and the only time he comes to my country I can't go to see him GAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!!

And you know what you know what?! It's not enough that One Republic came......


I knew One Republic was coming but I wasn't so sure about the Jabbawockeez. And I didn't know it would feel soooo frustrating to miss seeing them myself until I saw these red carpet pics on *tears hair out*

OMG Jabbawockeez................ why why why did they have to come and perform here and torture me like that?!?! I would have given anything to be able to see them perform live, especially two of them whom I have a soft spot for... ;)

Rynan "Kid Rainen" Paguio (methinks he's the best dancer in there :P)......

... and Jeff "Phi" Nguyen (*heart*!), who was lookin' sharp just now ;)

Sigh. Well at least One Republic won something......

... but it was just the Best Hook-up award for their collab with Timbaland for Apologize. I wish they'd won Best Breakthrough Artist too, but that went to Leona Lewis. sigh. I like her too, really, but y'know if I had to choose......

And the last disappointment of the MAA....... the Favourite International Artist Award went to Linkin Park =.= What about Justin people hello?! I've since made the conclusion that there is a serious shortage of Justin Timberlake fans in Malaysia since I'd already voted for him grrrr.

gaaaaah. I'm so not in the mood for assignments right now...... but as always, I've got a deadline in 2 days again. puke. somebody kill me now pls kill me.