Monday, December 29, 2008

nigo and da nigga

A break from the regular programming of emoness...


and the nigga. Pharrell Williams for you.

Because I like the nigga more.

Because this would be like the mostawesomecombo evah.

Hot dayum.

Yeah, strange obsessions hit one at 6-ish in the morning.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

taking this one to the grave

Perhaps over-compensating for my up-until-now uneventful life, I just wtf-ed and did things that I shouldn't ever have done a few hours ago. What was I thinking. Oh right, I wasn't.

The damage has been done and I dread to think what's gonna come of it. Not only did I let some of the people I care about most down, I may just have set off some GG-like madness... So now's a time as good as any to start using my spin doctor skills, I guess. oh wtf.

What was I thinking. What WAS I thinking.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

merry freakin' christmas

to me.

Yeah I lost it. Emoness makes you go crazy with the retail therapy.

So this is pretty much the only thing my 'lucky pendant' has got me this Christmas....

.... the last pair of shoes available that I wanted, in my size, in the store.

This would normally be when I start squealing about my new stuff and howbloodylucky I was to get it, but

all I really wanted for Christmas

was you

Saturday, December 20, 2008

wish mine was a hairy heart

So it goes. My recycling campaign has come to and end, and my thesis is coming to an end soon too, among other things. If only all that ended would leave me with a little more, rather than a gaping emptiness.

It's times like these that I wish I couldn't care, couldn't feel and couldn't think. It's times like these that I wish mine was a hairy heart, locked away and impervious to all. Guess my ice_princess email nick wasn't as accurate a description of me as I once thought it was.

It was all fine, until I came along and screwed it (and myself) all up, as only I could.

Whatever it is, that's how the cookie crumbles and brings emoness with it. And I gotta drag myself through 3 chapters of my thesis with the dead weight of emoness clanking along. sigh.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

spare me please

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down

Katy Perry - Hot N Cold

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

tag - 100 random questions

Hurm. So yeah, a tag from Jovial before continuing my journey to Socio-Cultural Comm hell THANKS TO MR CHUAN grrrrr. Just in case you read my blog again sir. zzzz.

[01] Name: Xinxian
[02] Nickname: Fresh
[03] Married: NO
[04] Zodiac Sign: Leo
[05] Gender: The fairer sex.
[06] Age: 21
[07] High School: SMJK Union
[08] College: Tunku Abdul Rahman College
[09] Height: 160 cm
[10] Weight: hello why do you want to know.
[11] Do you like yourself: Er. No.
[12] Piercings: None
[13] Right or left: Righty
[14] Are you a freak: So not.
[15] Hair: Perpetual bedhead. Occasionally disgusting.
[16] Skin: Fair.-ish.
[17] Allergic: um... Miley Cyrus?
[18] What are you doing now: this tag lah.
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: Sleep my ass off.
[20] What will you do 10 years later: No idea. I catch things as they fall my way.

[21] Live with mother/father/parents: Not at the moment.
[22] Siblings (included you): 2
[23] Eldest: Me
[24] Youngest: Um. My sister.
[25] Love/hate your family: hello who'd put hate lah.

[26] You found your another half: well...
[27] If yes, who is he/she: WELL....
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: Wentworth Miller!! *squeal*
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: N/A
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): Hell no. Not with my face.
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): Hell no. Not with my face.
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: wtf
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: all
[34] Ever argue with your other half: not
[35] You with your other half since: applicable
[36] Are you straight/lesbo: Straight
[37] Reasons you love your other half: hello
[38] You and your other half in which stage: not
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: applicable
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: again.

[41] Your first best friend: Dunno. *gasp*
[42] Your first enemy: Uh... me iz peaceful person.
[43] The friend you love the most: Deng. I love all my friends. *cannot show favouritism wtf*
[44] The enemy you hate the most (1 only): Refer to 42
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: Fuhhh. You try and pick one.
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: hmmmmmm......
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: Know-it-all bimbos.
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: Er. Know-it-all ah bengs?
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: Yes.
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: *gasp* No.
[51] If your friend backstabs you: There will be blood.
[52] If your friend betray you: There will be blood.
[53] If your friend woo your lover: There will be A LOT of blood. Yes, I take loyalty among friends seriously. Seriously.
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: Deng. Sapu lah if still single. Duh.
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: Deng. Sapu lah if he wants me. Duh.

[56] Are you a good student: HAHAHAHAHAHA
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: I get all my assignments done if it kills me. Normal homework... eh... no.
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: Ms Mah!!
[59] Always late to school/college: Occasionally.
[60] Your class: Uh... is... lively?
[61] You love your seniors: Dunno any seniors.
[62] Senior who you love the most: None.
[63] Your classmates good/bad: Good lah.
[64] Excellent result classmate: See Yun! My long lost sister! LOL
65] Laziest classmate: Dunno. None of them seem even close to being as lazy as I am =.=

[66] Smart people: intimidate me.
[67] Stupid people: are just unlucky to be so.
[68] Good looking people: get everything they want in life.
[69] Ugly people: go nowhere, like me.
[70] Funny people: are the ones I *heart* the most.
[71] Cute people: annoy me sometimes.
[72] Bad people: make the dark side seem so much more desirable.
[73] Honest people: need to learn the art of white lies.
[74] Acting people: need to STFU.
[75] You are what kind of people: The kind you don't notice in a crowd.

[76] Lip or eyes: Eyes. I think.
[77] Hugs or kisses: noooo don't make me choose.
[78] Shorter or taller: Tall!
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: Spontaneous! Sweep me off my feet yo.
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: *gasp* noooo don't make me choose again.
[81] Listener or talker: Talker. Silence kills.
[82] Romantic or rich: Romantic! I can be the rich one :P
[83] Good husband or Good Father: Good husband. No kids hello.

[84] Age to get marry: :O
[85] Numbers of kid(s): None ya allah.
[86] Career: OK somehow Miranda Priestley (The Devil Wears Prada) keeps popping up.
[87] Salary: Enough to support my fantasy of Chanels, Marc Jacobs and YSLs all day.
[88] Retirement age: I don't think that far T.T
[89] Properties value: Eh.
[90] Wishes: Toofreakin'many.

[91] Denise
[92] Lydia
[93] Hui Ping
[94] Mich
[95] Rei
[96] Hui Ping
[97] Xin Yun
[98] Siu Sien
[99] Clarine
[100]Kuan Ye

I actually reached 100! :D