Friday, December 25, 2009

tis the season to be jolly

I think the best Christmas gift is your salary coming in on Christmas Eve. Yesh I got paid for the first time woohoo. But if you're thinking about asking me how much moneh I can has, GO AWAY DOWAN FRIEND YOU. Because I'm still freakin poor... and my dear boss asked me to buy Blackberry lagi T.T OK so he was joking (I hope) but there's so much I wanna do now that I'm getting my own moneh. Like travel.

God I miss UK so much. What wouldn't I give to be able to shoot the autumn leaves and the frozen people in winter. And I can just imagine Paris being absolutely gorgeous this time of the year. sigh. Cold as it may be, my inner shutterbug is yearning to go out and just shoot for a day or two. I really miss doing the tourist thing... even if it is in Penang. *makes note to do a proper Penang shoot someday*

But being here kinda sucks out the inspiration somehow. I miss the simple days of vegetating and Photoshopping pics before I started working, which I don't get to do much these days cuz I don't shoot... and when I do my photos are so sad I can't bear to look at them :S

Anyway tis the season to be jolly.

And this makes me jolly! =D My Secret Santa present from Singaporean Nuffie Elaine - stuff from Sephora which we cannot has in Malaysia. That alone makes me jolly sigh I'm so easily bought. It also smells like caramel toffee which is SO AWESOME okay. The Singaporean Nuffies are all so sweet btw.

This is from Boss Ming for everyone! Cool gift even though I'm not in it =( Hopefully I will be though the next time there's a pic like that. Yes I know my recent pics are ugly see I told you T.T

Just to prove what an epic failure I am as a shutterbug, I didn't bring Charlie along for the company Christmas dinner. sigh what is wrong with me wtf. On the other hand, you  know you're the one with the awesome job when you can get your boss to do this:


Merry Christmas everyone! *throws popcorn and confetti*

Saturday, December 19, 2009

the leftover crumbs

So here's a few things I've learned since I started working a couple weeks ago:
  1. I am actually as overrated as I always thought I was. heehee.
  2. I've got a speshul 'meet the bloggers' voice which is up to two octaves higher than the voice I normally use to yell stuff like "MAHAI YOU THINK I VERY FREE AR."
  3. I really gotta learn to pose nicer in photos or risk appearing in random blogs looking like a drunken spastic monkey.
  4. I really need more clothes. Really seriously.
  5. I think I need to move out to preserve my sanity.
  6. I need my carrr. My lousy ancient whiny squeaky holey car.
Yup. That just about covers the basic stuff sigh. And I just realised I managed to take 800 photos of a wedding and hate all of them. ugh.

On the other hand, meeting up with old friends was teh awesumness =) Pity though that it was too spontaneous and Charlie didn't come along. meh. You'd think I'd have more interesting stuff to blog about, what with my awesome new job and all but noooo this is the best that it gets. pffft.

Monday, December 7, 2009

what we wait for

"How much of human life is lost in waiting." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Saturday, December 5, 2009

i sees cheez

Highlight of the day:

Me: Hey I like your jeans! So nice!
Cheesie: Thanks!
Me: You got them at Baci right?
Cheesie: *squeals* Yeah how did you know?!
Me: Cuz I read your blog!
Cheesie + me: SQUEEEEE

Awww isn't she like the cutest thing ever. And really nice too omg I *heart* her and Vivien they're so niceee. So yeah yesterday night marks my first time doing the whole meeting people hi-nice-to-meet-you thing. And if you're actually reading this blog you probably know that this is when I usually BSOD. So that's another one of my.... issues... that I gotta work out before I get booted for being anti-social or something T.T

Which reminds me.... I really should go shopping for more clothes now. Without my shopping buddy. sniff. And with no cash FML. My moneyflow is so one-way now.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

so i am a non-bum

So I've only just had a much-needed bath after the 5 hour journey back here, even though I've been home for more than 4 hours. Because well, taking out 5 tonnes of trash and cleaning a place that both stinks and looks like it hasn't been introduced to a mop and broom since 1937 does tend to take up some time. Tough shit too, knowing that all that is gonna last all of maybe 1 day before I find 3 trash bags glaring balefully at me from 3 feet away. And I'm going to be sleep deprived. But dammit I will be happy.

HAPPY I say. Because in a few hours, I'll offically be the new ProbieNuffie. Nothing better to psyche you up for the first day of work like an orange office and friends who want your job. I love you friends. hurhur. So here's to a (hopefully) awesome job, more orange office time and less stinky room time.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

attachment issues

I have issues T.T

More specifically, gadget attachment issues. I'M SO SORRY I DIDN'T BRING YOU BACK CHARLIE.

I miss you and your friends so much. T.T OK I know I look like I need some Gadgetoholics Anonymous intervention now but but see Charlie is only like 2 months old okay. He's still little and lonely. shhh.


And now, for the LOL of the day, check out this article about why the Twilight saga (movies, that is) must continue till Breaking Dawn is done. And it is full of teh awesumness. No, seriously, it's a must read. To illustrate why, let me provide you with a quote from the article that kinda explains it all:

So one day he's going to stick his wolf dick in this girl that he see as a bloody newborn. Romance is not dead, it's just being abused by insane Mormon writers.


Friday, November 27, 2009

day 'n' nite

Day and night
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night
He's all alone, some things will never change (never change)
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night)

-Kid Cudi, Day 'n' Nite

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


I have been eating almost nothing but chips for the whole day FML.

Not the best way to prepare for an interview. I need my Penang food =(

Monday, November 23, 2009

once upon a geeky time

... a boy met a girl on Flickr. Though they were miles apart, they came together with the help of the Photoshop fairy, and they lived happily ever after.

I can't believe I'm only learning about this now, but darnit if it's not now my favourite fairy tale of all time. Such is the story of Aaron and Rosie, who met on Flickr through their 365 projects and had the most fairytale-like romance with the decidedly geeky twist which melted my little geeky heart: Because they couldn't be together, once a week Aaron would take a photo of himself in the States, and Rosie would take one in England, and they'd put themselves in a photo, until they finally met in person and the rest is history. SIGH SO ROMANTIC.

And because it's Flickr, you know the photos are gonna be awesome - take a look at the set, which has the both of them in all sorts of surreal fairy tale pictures. And the descriptions! so heartbreaking sometimes. Aaron and Rosie edit the same shoots in different ways, and while I do kinda lean towards Aaron's work, Rosie's is no less impressive especially since she's only like 18 okay let me go hang my head in shame now bye T.T

Between that and religiously stalking Jasmine Star's blog (which happens to have the most brilliantly happily romantic wedding photos in the history of EVER faster go seeee), I keep getting this feeling that I've mellowed and emo-ed somewhat since traipsing back from Europe. Because you know, I'm really not the type to be happy over weddings and mushylove stuff. Oh and also my iTunes is also now as likely to be playing Michael Buble's Everything as something from Pitbull. hmmm.

And because now my posts are nekkid till there's a pikshar...

Happiness is summertime daisies =)

Saturday, November 21, 2009

rolling backwards

After less than a week back, there's been a job offer and an upcoming interview scheduled already. Lucky stars, thank ye. And yeah I guess some excitement or whatever is in order but dammit all I can think of now is how much I miss my home and my friends. Which is just nuts because I'm supposed to be the weird kid with no attachments to anybody. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. But at least I'm feeling better than the nutter having a watery mental hemorrhage over anybody who'd listen a few days ago. sigh.

I miss all you guys sooo much =( And the times that we had!

This too I miss - one of my most favouritest views ever - Liverpool Cathedral from the back of the Dean Walters building. Accessible only to us Mass Comm. students (wheee!), and almost makes the half-hour walk to class worth it all. Alas, toomuchbloodysun and my poor lil Ixus make for a photo needing valiant salvation with much Photomatix and Photoshop.

That city is just so damn beautiful.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

a tale of (deciding between) two cities

So now that I'm apparently (finally) going back to KL on Monday... for some reason I'm inexplicably way more heavy-hearted about leaving Penang than I thought I would.

Maybe it's the thought of leaving the comforts of home.

Maybe my parents' (not so) subtle psychology tactics finally got to me.
Maybe it's the thought of leaving the friends I have here.

you can take a Penangite out of Penang, but you can't take the Penang out of a Penangite. sigh. Sure ain't the same tune I was singing barely a few months ago. Whatever it is, I'm suddenly having doubts about this.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

woof woof

A doggie a day keeps the doctor away.

So here's two. =D

I know, Ginger. Sometimes I just feel like lying like that all day too. *patpat* Oh wait, I kinda already am. teehee.

Monday, October 26, 2009

pumpkins of the mind

I'm really trying not to think of it or to say it out loud, because I know that if I do, it'll become real. And I just can't handle that again.


Oh and um...

ImissLondonsomuch. All of it. Everything - from the fancy-schmancy...

to the nitty-gritty...

and the squeaky-squeaky.



And for the upcoming Halloween celebrations...

I can't help it. I luvs this photo. I know I look like a nut. Shutup.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

older and none the wiser

This would be totally hilarious if it didn't resemble an ominous prediction of the future:

Age has been a lingering obsession of mine since I left my teens. However old I've been is too old. At 26, I felt totally washed up. At 32, I regretted wasting time worrying about my age as a 26-year-old, because now I was convinced I really was totally washed up. At 38, I look back at my 32-year-old self and regret that he wasted time with those regrets about wasted time. Then I regret wasting my current time regretting regrets about regrets. This is pretty sophisticated regretting I'm doing. That's the sole advantage of ageing: I can now effortlessly consolidate my regrets into one manageable block of misery. Otherwise, by the age of 44, I'd need complex database software just to keep track of precisely how many things I'm regretting at once.

- Charlie Brooker, The Guardian 12 October 2009

*signs up for regret-managing database software*

Sunday, October 11, 2009

j'adore paris

When a city like Paris becomes as famous as it is, the endless stream of people wanting a piece of the Parisian magic begins, and for every tourist enraptured by its charm, no doubt there will be ten more disappointed that the city of lights and romance has failed to live up to their expectations.

Maybe it's the newfound photography geek in me, but Paris has turned out to be one of my personal favourites among the places I'd visited. As long as the feet are strong and the heart is willing, there is no shortage of snap-worthy scenes all over the city. There are the enormously famous landmarks...

... the sweeping views of Paris from the top of many of the landmarks...

... and if you just pause, and take some time to wander off the beaten tourist track...

... there are places where the hordes of fellow tourists vanish, and you get a glimpse of the quiet charm and romance of Paris so often immortalized in movies and postcards, yet elude many. Despite being overrun with tourists more often than not, and the commercialization that follows, the soul of Paris is very much still alive; however, it cannot be felt by rushing from one attraction to another, which is a great pity.

Of course, feeling the romance in the air might be a lot easier if you have a special someone along for the journey...


Thursday, October 8, 2009

scrambled eggs and mooncakes

It's true then, the saying about old habits dying hard. True at least for this long-lost habit of mine of blogging in the dead of the night. And yes the title doesn't make much sense but does anything make sense anyways? Maybe I'm just hungry again. Please feed me.

Back then, like maybe 10 years ago, I used to think that 10 years from now I'd be some straight-A or somesuch graduate, knowing everything, galloping around in heels and very sure of the blindingly glorious career path I'd be embarking on. How disappointed my young, innocent self would be if I'd knew then that I'd be horribly wrong on all counts. Especially the heels part.

I used to resent the fact that my life then was more or less set on a course, albeit without my having a say in it. I also used to think that it was kinda cool to be able to do lotsa stuff well-ish... but then I'd also never quite grasped the meaning of 'the jack of all trades is a master of none'. Now having (some) freedom to choose seems a lot less than it was hyped up to be, largely because the options now start off equally unappealing, with no obvious advantages, and keep multiplying and getting worse over time.

Never mind the fact that the above rambling was set off just by watching a double episode of Heroes, or that the nagging feeling that my newly earned degree is of the wrong major keeps coming more than usual... the worst feeling now is that of overwhelming despair that has been plaguing me since exactly two weeks ago, and is threatening to stay. And also the realisation that the only thing that I really wanna do is

Because I just think that the jetlag and nomadic-ness is worth pictures like this

and this

but that's just me. Guess that's just another one of those things not meant to be.

Saturday, August 22, 2009


are always the hardest when you have to say it to places where you've left a piece of you behind.

How do you leave a place which makes you happy just to wake up to a sunny morning

a place which replaces your cynical, jaded eyes with a sense of childlike wonder

or a place that simply feels like home after spending even the briefest moments there?

The worst part about going back is not the passing sense of nostalgia towards a place where fun times were had

but the fear that the peace and contentment I've had throughout the past 85 days will never be found again, because in its place will be the all too familiar feeling of frantic searching for that place where I am truly happy.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

how (not) to complete a 1500 word essay

Sunday, 2 August. 1 day before deadline
1030 - Wake up. Get real motivated to start assignment "real early".
1200 - Still on Gizmodo.
1230 - Lunchtime. Must give self some "rest" while eating.
1400 - Urban Outfitters has some really nice stuff...
1530 - Start blasting music that D deems crap. Start reading journals.
1545 - Facebook is SO interesting.
1630 - A short nap would be nice...
1730 - Back to journals.
1800 - 2200 - Read journals. Facebook. Ebay. ooomg leather bags. All Saints. Who's that outside the window? Journals. Strawberries. Bejeweled.
2200 - OMG Facebook says my friends have finished but I have no intro yet OMG
2300 - 1 paragraph done. Rest.

Monday, 3 August. Deadline.
0400 - 3 out of 6 paragraphs done. McCoy's chips help me celebrate
0500 - Sunrise. 4 out of 6 paragraphs done. I WANT TO DIEEEE
0530 - Why didn't I start 5 days ago? *facepalm*
0615 - Done. Stagger to bed.
0700 - Good morning sunshine. Time for class T.T

9 more days like this to go in the month ahead. Whoopdeedoo.

The world according to kitty is a very nice one. I want to go to there.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

47 and counting

I am hereby ashamed to admit that I am a failure as both a geek and an Apple fangirl.


Can't believe it's been 47 days since I was last dipanggang-ed by Malaysian sunlight. The old cliche of time flying by when you're having fun has never hit me more.

Can't believe I've been to so many places I never thought I'd go to.

Surprisingly, I enjoyed London a lot more than I thought I would...

... enjoyed 2-hour hikes a lot more than I thought I would (it's awesomer when you click on it :P)...

... but most surprisingly of all, Edinburgh turned out to be the place which holds my heart. I always figured myself to be a true blue city girl, only content to be surrounded with the flashing lights of the big city, and all the clothes and gadgets and malls that come with one... but apparently I never really grew out of all the stories of the quaint old towns and whatnot I read when I was still a wee lass.

Can't wait to go explore more. North Wales and very hopefully North Ireland await. *crosses fingers and toes*


God my blog posts are getting so boring. Oh okay I know.

Today, I was suspected of plagiarising an essay because it's apparently "too good to be true." FML

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

gadgets & chocolates

How do I love thee?

Let me count the ways


*breathes in, breathes out*

Much better.

Is it possible to miss a place you've never even left?